Hey all,
My name is Jennie and life has taken an unexpected curve. I feel like I have always been “sick.” Nothing to put me in the hospital (well not long term). I have been like the run of the mill m, undefinable kind of sick. I have been anemic in and off since I was in high school and it took people a few years to believe that. It took a trip to the hospital for the truth to arise but that is a stormy for a different post. Anyways, fast forward to 4 days ago. I went in for surgery. It was exploratory. I knew that that worst case scenario was cancer and so I kept pushing that idea to the back of my mind because cancer was not a word I could comprehend. So Friday I go in for my hysteroscopy and my D&C (dilation and curettage).
My doctor, fairly casually, informed me post op that I have fibroids on the right side of my uterus and that I need a partial hysterectomy. I was so devastated. I have wanted nothing more than to carry a baby to term and give life to an offspring.
Side note: I am a mom. I am in no way denying the life I get to experience caring for and mothering my precious almost 3 years old foster daughter. She is my everything! She is my life. I would never trade Thai experience and journey for the world. I still though want to have the opportunity to experience my body giving the miracle of life.
So, here I am, 3 days after surgery. I am terrified but I am resolved. I do not do well with being told no or that I cannot do something. (Again more to learn about me later). So this is my journey to fertility. This is where I will share all the crazy events, diets, herbs and treatments that I try. This is where I will share heartache and pain and truth. This is going to be raw and maybe at times gross so enter at your own risk.
This chapter of my life is scary but it is thrilling. I am optimistic for the future and will not give up.
